kainsdarkangel

I must say that since my last post I have grown as a human being. I am single once more, but I no longer hate myself. Not to say I won't have my moments of self loathing, all of us do, but I am the happiest I have ever been. Life is looking up for me as I now change directions from an animator to a voice actor. I have the best mentor anyone could ask for and equally wonderful friends. Life is unbelievable. I have been learning how the universe works, and let me tell you, once you understand it, USE IT. I am, and I can't even begin to explain the feelings of love, happiness, acceptance, achievement and wonder that I have. I love you all!

sooo i know i has had a lot of sads but I'm doing much better now. My BF works at Medieval Times as a knight. I went with his family, who had come down for vacation, to see his new fight. He did wonderfully during the games and fighting portion I was so impressed! He fought hard, with passion and fire in his eyes. ^_^ I was screaming the loudest for him. "YOU KILL HIM LOVE, YOU KILL HIM DEAD!" I know I'm being selfish by saying this but my favorite part of the whole thing was when he was giving out the flowers he put one in his mouth, something I've never seen him do previously or heard of him doing. He threw the first three flowers to othe

Have you ever been so depressed, sad, or anxious that you just don't feel like you are here? Or conscious for that matter? Its like the world around you is only color and nothing more significant than that. Nothing is living, you are just watching a bad movie.   That is what I'm feeling and I'm going through issues with my boyfriend. Affection issues. He feels I suffocate him and when I ask for a hug or if I want to cuddle up with him. I guess I'm just too much for him. I overwhelm him so much he feels the need to go to a bar till closing then show up at home at or after 3 am almost every night after work. And even then he'll blame not wanti